Post by Psalmist-=Of-God=- (Mike) on May 16, 2007 22:07:05 GMT -5
I was born in a christian home to a family of strong believers. My dad was (and is) a pastor and my mom was (and is) heavily involved in the various ministries. I accepted Christ as my lord and savior when I was five and was a classic church kid. I went to Sunday School, prayed with my parents, went to Vacation Bible School, and lived for God. I was baptized at age 11, and was volunteering for the music ministry as a drummer. I was involved in children's ministries and volunteered for everything that came up.
But around 8th grade something went wrong-drastically wrong. I had been dating a girl for about 3 years and she dumped me that year. I was sad, but soon got over it. But then girlfriends number 2 dumped me and I started getting wary. Girlfriend number 3 I had my first kiss with, but then 2 days later she dumped me. Now I was hurt. After that, I never trusted anyone. I would date a girl, then dump her a little while later. I became a cold-hearted *insert expletive here* and changed girls almost weekly. I started getting physically involved with them-I didn't have a plan because I thought it would never happen; even those I wasn't dating I would mess around with. I hurt a lot of people badly in those times. Finally it got to the point summer 2006 when I hurt one girl so badly, she was deeply scarred. Finally it hit me how wrong I was. I called myself a christian. I damaged and hurt all of these people; of God's own children and I had the audacity to call myself a christian. I dropped out of sight for a while, not wanting to look anyone in the eye. It came to a close when a friend and mentor of mine died at age 19, and I found out that my best friend was, and is slowly dying. I came back around, and tried to build my life back up to what it once was.
Unfortunately, you have to break down before you can build. I met someone amazing, someone truly amazing and began to like her. I asked her parents permission to date her, and we started dating. But out of nowhere, she dumped me, betrayed me, and virtually killed me. I was destroyed. I wanted myself dead. I actually attempted suicide. But my friends talked to me, and more or less saved me. I have now rededicated my life to Christ, and I live for him. Progress is slow, but I am growing daily, and I want to learn more. I ask for Christ to fill me up, and he does more than that. I am actively teaching in Childrens' ministry, and I still play drums for the progressive service.
That's been my walk so far with the lord, but it still continues today. Just pray that God continues to bless me the way he has.
-Mike
But around 8th grade something went wrong-drastically wrong. I had been dating a girl for about 3 years and she dumped me that year. I was sad, but soon got over it. But then girlfriends number 2 dumped me and I started getting wary. Girlfriend number 3 I had my first kiss with, but then 2 days later she dumped me. Now I was hurt. After that, I never trusted anyone. I would date a girl, then dump her a little while later. I became a cold-hearted *insert expletive here* and changed girls almost weekly. I started getting physically involved with them-I didn't have a plan because I thought it would never happen; even those I wasn't dating I would mess around with. I hurt a lot of people badly in those times. Finally it got to the point summer 2006 when I hurt one girl so badly, she was deeply scarred. Finally it hit me how wrong I was. I called myself a christian. I damaged and hurt all of these people; of God's own children and I had the audacity to call myself a christian. I dropped out of sight for a while, not wanting to look anyone in the eye. It came to a close when a friend and mentor of mine died at age 19, and I found out that my best friend was, and is slowly dying. I came back around, and tried to build my life back up to what it once was.
Unfortunately, you have to break down before you can build. I met someone amazing, someone truly amazing and began to like her. I asked her parents permission to date her, and we started dating. But out of nowhere, she dumped me, betrayed me, and virtually killed me. I was destroyed. I wanted myself dead. I actually attempted suicide. But my friends talked to me, and more or less saved me. I have now rededicated my life to Christ, and I live for him. Progress is slow, but I am growing daily, and I want to learn more. I ask for Christ to fill me up, and he does more than that. I am actively teaching in Childrens' ministry, and I still play drums for the progressive service.
That's been my walk so far with the lord, but it still continues today. Just pray that God continues to bless me the way he has.
-Mike
