Post by obadiah840bc on Sept 19, 2006 20:48:20 GMT -5
I praise the Lord for His testimony in my life. I was an atheist for many years. Religion was a crutch for the weak. I could not see how a god could let this earth get so bad.
I was a prospect for a biker gang for many years until my addiction to crack had me obstrasized by most of the boyz.
As every passing year flew by, I would get more crazy and daring in all my psychotic antics. My wife had wanted to leave me many times but she was too afraid.
As I grew older I had an interest in the powers that the earth seemed to posses. I eventually found some answers in the Wiccan community.
As I began to read and study this ancient art, I prayed my first prayer or incantation to the moon ||goddess dianna||.
My wife began to attend church after seeing what I was studying, elevating her fears even more. She was saved when she was young but never really surrendered to the Lord. She surrendered to me.
I could go on, but I believe you got the picture of what once was.
My wife was several hundred miles from home at a business conference. I took advantage of this situation and for the first time smoked crack in my own house. I spent about $500. The next day after only a few hours sleep and still kind of high I began to have an over whelming sense of guilt, betrayal and helplessness. All of which I had never felt before. I thought I was going crazy.
To hush my mind I turned on the T.V , and there was an evangelist yapping about Jesus and how he saves from all kinds of torments. I turned the T,V off I didn't need a bible thumper right now.
I began to think of my wife, and how she had changed and didn't seem to fear me anymore, what if this Jesus is true??.....
I turned the T.V back on some minutes later and there was another preacher saying almost verbatim... Jesus saves from drugs, from torments, from anger. ask him ask him ask him.
Before I knew it I was down on my face crying, weeping sobbing repenting of blasphemy, lying, hatred, evil doings, all the people I hurt on and on and on..
For days I was an emotional mess. Laughing for joy, then weeping in yet more sorrow, He is real, Jesus Christ is real. I was in awe
I am a new creature in Christ Jesus. Bless'ed be the name of the Lord
He has since called me to the ministry. I am 33 years old in my 2nd year of Bible College. I sold my Harley for the first years tuition and been living on faith ever since.
Holy, Holy,Holy is our Lord G^d Almighty
I was a prospect for a biker gang for many years until my addiction to crack had me obstrasized by most of the boyz.
As every passing year flew by, I would get more crazy and daring in all my psychotic antics. My wife had wanted to leave me many times but she was too afraid.
As I grew older I had an interest in the powers that the earth seemed to posses. I eventually found some answers in the Wiccan community.
As I began to read and study this ancient art, I prayed my first prayer or incantation to the moon ||goddess dianna||.
My wife began to attend church after seeing what I was studying, elevating her fears even more. She was saved when she was young but never really surrendered to the Lord. She surrendered to me.
I could go on, but I believe you got the picture of what once was.
My wife was several hundred miles from home at a business conference. I took advantage of this situation and for the first time smoked crack in my own house. I spent about $500. The next day after only a few hours sleep and still kind of high I began to have an over whelming sense of guilt, betrayal and helplessness. All of which I had never felt before. I thought I was going crazy.
To hush my mind I turned on the T.V , and there was an evangelist yapping about Jesus and how he saves from all kinds of torments. I turned the T,V off I didn't need a bible thumper right now.
I began to think of my wife, and how she had changed and didn't seem to fear me anymore, what if this Jesus is true??.....
I turned the T.V back on some minutes later and there was another preacher saying almost verbatim... Jesus saves from drugs, from torments, from anger. ask him ask him ask him.
Before I knew it I was down on my face crying, weeping sobbing repenting of blasphemy, lying, hatred, evil doings, all the people I hurt on and on and on..
For days I was an emotional mess. Laughing for joy, then weeping in yet more sorrow, He is real, Jesus Christ is real. I was in awe
I am a new creature in Christ Jesus. Bless'ed be the name of the Lord
He has since called me to the ministry. I am 33 years old in my 2nd year of Bible College. I sold my Harley for the first years tuition and been living on faith ever since.
Holy, Holy,Holy is our Lord G^d Almighty