Post by Cherub-=Of-God=- on Nov 19, 2006 13:04:57 GMT -5
Wow... where do I start?
I first accepted Christ when I was 14 years old... It was awesome having this awesome, loving God into my life. Basically gave me a purpose! I was happy until I had my first break-up with a girlfriend =/ I was immature... yes... And i blamed God... Cursed his name... Kind of like making him the excuse for the cause... But soon after I realized that she just wasnt the one for me and i tried to make ammends with God, (saying sorry lol etc.). But I dont think I was ever "right" with him because I just wasnt devoted as I am now. Some time later I got another girlfriend and satan used his magic on me and her... right times... right moments... *sigh* the biggest mistake of my life. I lost my one magic moment I could give to my wife with her =/. Still makes me sad even to this day. Well, about 4 months ago( we are still going out) God stirred up my heart and convicted it. I immediately felt that it was wrong what I was doing and I needed to stop. So I had a huge 4 month stuggle of stopping and going and stopping and going... real bad... Until finally I went to a pastor with my problem. God bless him and he helped me through my struggle (this was like 3 weeks ago). After that, I set some barriers and told her 1 more time and we're over... *sigh* even though that anytime i look at her that way, we get along and when i dont we dont get along... I feel it might be already over. (please pray guys lol I really need it). And last Saturday I stood before the church at an alter call and definately recommited my life =D Its such a blessing and god continues to make me happy and calm through the stress of college and work. Praise his name... Well that's my testimony lol
(but please pray for me dealing with this thing)
Love you guys!!!
----Mathew
I first accepted Christ when I was 14 years old... It was awesome having this awesome, loving God into my life. Basically gave me a purpose! I was happy until I had my first break-up with a girlfriend =/ I was immature... yes... And i blamed God... Cursed his name... Kind of like making him the excuse for the cause... But soon after I realized that she just wasnt the one for me and i tried to make ammends with God, (saying sorry lol etc.). But I dont think I was ever "right" with him because I just wasnt devoted as I am now. Some time later I got another girlfriend and satan used his magic on me and her... right times... right moments... *sigh* the biggest mistake of my life. I lost my one magic moment I could give to my wife with her =/. Still makes me sad even to this day. Well, about 4 months ago( we are still going out) God stirred up my heart and convicted it. I immediately felt that it was wrong what I was doing and I needed to stop. So I had a huge 4 month stuggle of stopping and going and stopping and going... real bad... Until finally I went to a pastor with my problem. God bless him and he helped me through my struggle (this was like 3 weeks ago). After that, I set some barriers and told her 1 more time and we're over... *sigh* even though that anytime i look at her that way, we get along and when i dont we dont get along... I feel it might be already over. (please pray guys lol I really need it). And last Saturday I stood before the church at an alter call and definately recommited my life =D Its such a blessing and god continues to make me happy and calm through the stress of college and work. Praise his name... Well that's my testimony lol
(but please pray for me dealing with this thing)
Love you guys!!!
----Mathew
