Post by Dancer-=Of-God=- on Dec 16, 2007 10:01:45 GMT -5
I have been willing to write a testimony sooner on how God worked His way into my life, even now I feel that words can't describe the whole picture and all the good things of God that came over me during the last two years. Because I'm not very strong in writing these things you probably need to keep in mind that all the grace and love from God that I will try to describe here need to be multiplied by altleast a thousand or more because my words will fail miserably describing God's patience and endurance with me.
I don't want to rant on about how miserable my life was and how dead I felt inside before I met the Lord but it is needed to fully grasp God's grace in this. One of the earliest text in the Bible that I read and that stayed with me is the story of the female sinner in the house of the Pharisee.
39Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner.
40And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on.
41There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty.
42And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most?
43Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged.
How true is that! as I said, I wasn't doing too well in my life, addicted to drugs which was having a degenerating effect on my mental health and social life, visits from the police, even a house search at one point. My friend, if your life looked anything like it was for me then how greatfull you and I must be for meeting our Lord and His restoration of the mess that we caused trough our sins!
Obviously I wasn't too happy with my life and I grew tired of it, I couldn't carry the weight anymore of my rebelious life style ... I .. was ... dead tired! I believe that God saw my need to something bigger since it came to my heart to stop with drugs, stop drinking and to stop hanging out with the people I used to call my friends ... how little did I know what a friend really was untill now. Bassicly I had quite my life, left everything that I knew and had enjoyed for years behind me. My motive wasn't neccesairly to get back on track but rather to escape the hardships of my rebelious life ... I couldn't stand no more!
So here I was, alone and miserable, proven myself to be uncapable to live the life that had been granted to me. Having no friends I tried to kill my time by surfing the internet, searching for cheap laughs and shallow conversations with people who probably were as lost as myself. Now here's where God's light start to shine trough and His actions start to get noticable. On a good day, a really good day may I add, someone on my old forums told me he was involved in a free online game America's Army and that I should try it. Me, anxious to find things to fill my life with was more then happy to try it out, first game server I saw was the -=Of-God=- server, it jumped out for me for some reason. Now, troughout all these events I always have known there was a God, I did know parts of the Word since I was raised as a Christian or should I say a wanna-be Christian. My family and I used to go to church but our faith and efforts were so small that it was destroyed trough my parents divorce and the aftermath that followed.
As I said the -=Of-God=- server jumped out for me and I started to play there frequently. I enjoyed the games I played there and the good vibe comming from the members of that clan, it was something I hadn't seen in a very long time. Now I know that the thing that I saw was God's light in those people and it drew me near as a magnet, I had found a new addiction and that was to be involved with these great people. After becomming a members myself it was just a matter of time before I was tempted to read the testimonies in this board. How desperatly I needed to believe this, that God was commited to His followers and that He was righteous!
After I discovered the need for God in my life I started asking questions that witheld me from accepting God's gift. I couldn't understand certain things about God and to me they looked unfair and unrighteous, FC replied with a statement that I think back now as I am writting this because now I can see the Kingdom of God like he said I would.
How true the Bible is on this subject and what a great way from FC to tell me to stop asking questions and to go see for myself LOL
A few days later I prayed the most important words that I will ever say in this life, I aknowledged who Christ was and confessed my sins. Since then God has taught me a lot, matured me in a lot of things. His lessons weren't always gentle but praise the Lord that He knows how to deal with me ... God knows me inside out and so does He know you! I have backslidden a lot but every single time He forgave me and I was allowed back in His care. I'm not saying that sin is a good thing but sometimes walking away from God can be a good lesson on how to remind one how empty life is without God's warmth and guidance.
God you are my hope and my light, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Grace you have shown to me. You are a God of miracles and that is exactly what has happened in me Lord, thank you for being the loving and caring Father that you are, I love you. Amen.
Marco -
I don't want to rant on about how miserable my life was and how dead I felt inside before I met the Lord but it is needed to fully grasp God's grace in this. One of the earliest text in the Bible that I read and that stayed with me is the story of the female sinner in the house of the Pharisee.
39Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner.
40And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on.
41There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty.
42And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most?
43Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged.
How true is that! as I said, I wasn't doing too well in my life, addicted to drugs which was having a degenerating effect on my mental health and social life, visits from the police, even a house search at one point. My friend, if your life looked anything like it was for me then how greatfull you and I must be for meeting our Lord and His restoration of the mess that we caused trough our sins!
Obviously I wasn't too happy with my life and I grew tired of it, I couldn't carry the weight anymore of my rebelious life style ... I .. was ... dead tired! I believe that God saw my need to something bigger since it came to my heart to stop with drugs, stop drinking and to stop hanging out with the people I used to call my friends ... how little did I know what a friend really was untill now. Bassicly I had quite my life, left everything that I knew and had enjoyed for years behind me. My motive wasn't neccesairly to get back on track but rather to escape the hardships of my rebelious life ... I couldn't stand no more!
So here I was, alone and miserable, proven myself to be uncapable to live the life that had been granted to me. Having no friends I tried to kill my time by surfing the internet, searching for cheap laughs and shallow conversations with people who probably were as lost as myself. Now here's where God's light start to shine trough and His actions start to get noticable. On a good day, a really good day may I add, someone on my old forums told me he was involved in a free online game America's Army and that I should try it. Me, anxious to find things to fill my life with was more then happy to try it out, first game server I saw was the -=Of-God=- server, it jumped out for me for some reason. Now, troughout all these events I always have known there was a God, I did know parts of the Word since I was raised as a Christian or should I say a wanna-be Christian. My family and I used to go to church but our faith and efforts were so small that it was destroyed trough my parents divorce and the aftermath that followed.
As I said the -=Of-God=- server jumped out for me and I started to play there frequently. I enjoyed the games I played there and the good vibe comming from the members of that clan, it was something I hadn't seen in a very long time. Now I know that the thing that I saw was God's light in those people and it drew me near as a magnet, I had found a new addiction and that was to be involved with these great people. After becomming a members myself it was just a matter of time before I was tempted to read the testimonies in this board. How desperatly I needed to believe this, that God was commited to His followers and that He was righteous!
After I discovered the need for God in my life I started asking questions that witheld me from accepting God's gift. I couldn't understand certain things about God and to me they looked unfair and unrighteous, FC replied with a statement that I think back now as I am writting this because now I can see the Kingdom of God like he said I would.
forchrist said:
Some things have to be experienced in order for the answers to come. Nicodemus, who had known the old testament back and forth and was a teacher of the word, asked Jesus almost the same question. Jesus told Nicodemus basically that, and I am paraphrasing here, unless a man be born again he CAN NOT SEE the kingdom of God. The operative word being SEE. It won't make any sense to him.How true the Bible is on this subject and what a great way from FC to tell me to stop asking questions and to go see for myself LOL
A few days later I prayed the most important words that I will ever say in this life, I aknowledged who Christ was and confessed my sins. Since then God has taught me a lot, matured me in a lot of things. His lessons weren't always gentle but praise the Lord that He knows how to deal with me ... God knows me inside out and so does He know you! I have backslidden a lot but every single time He forgave me and I was allowed back in His care. I'm not saying that sin is a good thing but sometimes walking away from God can be a good lesson on how to remind one how empty life is without God's warmth and guidance.
God you are my hope and my light, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Grace you have shown to me. You are a God of miracles and that is exactly what has happened in me Lord, thank you for being the loving and caring Father that you are, I love you. Amen.
Marco -
