Post by z1pp0m4n on Sept 21, 2008 8:23:03 GMT -5
Well, here goes....
I've always known there was a God. I have always heard the name Jesus... ever since I was little, my family has had preachers in our heritage. My uncle was a man of God. He showed me the way, but at that point in my life, at around the age of 12, I refused the love Jesus offered me, I felt his knocking and hardened my heart at that time, at this same time, I've always known that I was not in God's will.... but I never did anything I "thought" was bad.
I lived my life throughout my teen years, living life as if there was no tomorrow. I fornicated, drank, and smoked illegal drugs (weed). I had the fun I wanted (or thought I wanted) but it didn't make me feel any better, only worse....
After being married for 12 years, together with my wife for 15, and after 2 of my own daughters ( I also have a 16 y/o step-daughter-who is my own) I began questioning my faith again... only this time, I felt the tug, and knew what was happening, so I began my trek of awakening again. On 11May07 I was watching a video on www.godtube.com and it was Ray Comfort and Kirk Cameron talking about hell's best kept secret.
They started out by talking about a "key" and I was intrigued. When they asked me if I was a "good" person on the video I said the usual thing, yea... only I didn't know how wrong I was... they asked me to question myself and see if I was good. Hence, here is where the 10 commandments come in.... I asked 3 questions to myself.... 1. have I ever looked upon a woman in lust- yea... failed that one. 2. have I ever stolen anything- yea... failed that one too. 3. have I ever told a lie- yea... 3 in a row and I haven't even asked the other 7! At this point, my heart began to get heavy. I knew I was feeling Him. The quickening.
Well, at the end of the video, they said a sinner's prayer (one of many) and told me to read Psalms 51. I read Psalms 51 and when I got to verse 4 and 5, I was broken and knew I needed Jesus. THANK YOU JESUS! AMEN AND AMEN. Hallelujah!
Even, when I got to verse 4 and 5, I wept. I wept more than any time in my whole life.... the verse says and I quote it for you from here: www.blueletterbible.org
Psa 51:4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done [this] evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, [and] be clear when thou judgest.
Psa 51:5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
From the womb I was in sin... that is heavy. I knew there was no way out of this world, but through death and the only way I could have life after this was through him. I have always believed, but denied... and was a heathen and disobedient. Know that God has seen fit to give me a second chance (by coming to me again, when he didn't have to) I have been freed. My conscience is clear. I have no baggage. I have peace at last in Jesus. No fear. Don't get me wrong though, Jesus says: in the world, you shall have tribulation, but do not fear, for I have overcome the world. Ain't it wonderful? o thank you Jesus.
I am a new creature Even... only thing is, I have a firm belief that when I fall short, and I do daily... that I confess my sin and rely on Him who gave me life to pull me through.
That's my testimony brother... I hope you enjoy the read. I would love to hear about your tesitimony too!
In God's hands...
Jay
Last thing, read about the coming judgement in Daniel 7. I think you'll enjoy it- I know I did. :wink:
I've always known there was a God. I have always heard the name Jesus... ever since I was little, my family has had preachers in our heritage. My uncle was a man of God. He showed me the way, but at that point in my life, at around the age of 12, I refused the love Jesus offered me, I felt his knocking and hardened my heart at that time, at this same time, I've always known that I was not in God's will.... but I never did anything I "thought" was bad.
I lived my life throughout my teen years, living life as if there was no tomorrow. I fornicated, drank, and smoked illegal drugs (weed). I had the fun I wanted (or thought I wanted) but it didn't make me feel any better, only worse....
After being married for 12 years, together with my wife for 15, and after 2 of my own daughters ( I also have a 16 y/o step-daughter-who is my own) I began questioning my faith again... only this time, I felt the tug, and knew what was happening, so I began my trek of awakening again. On 11May07 I was watching a video on www.godtube.com and it was Ray Comfort and Kirk Cameron talking about hell's best kept secret.
They started out by talking about a "key" and I was intrigued. When they asked me if I was a "good" person on the video I said the usual thing, yea... only I didn't know how wrong I was... they asked me to question myself and see if I was good. Hence, here is where the 10 commandments come in.... I asked 3 questions to myself.... 1. have I ever looked upon a woman in lust- yea... failed that one. 2. have I ever stolen anything- yea... failed that one too. 3. have I ever told a lie- yea... 3 in a row and I haven't even asked the other 7! At this point, my heart began to get heavy. I knew I was feeling Him. The quickening.
Well, at the end of the video, they said a sinner's prayer (one of many) and told me to read Psalms 51. I read Psalms 51 and when I got to verse 4 and 5, I was broken and knew I needed Jesus. THANK YOU JESUS! AMEN AND AMEN. Hallelujah!
Even, when I got to verse 4 and 5, I wept. I wept more than any time in my whole life.... the verse says and I quote it for you from here: www.blueletterbible.org
Psa 51:4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done [this] evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, [and] be clear when thou judgest.
Psa 51:5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
From the womb I was in sin... that is heavy. I knew there was no way out of this world, but through death and the only way I could have life after this was through him. I have always believed, but denied... and was a heathen and disobedient. Know that God has seen fit to give me a second chance (by coming to me again, when he didn't have to) I have been freed. My conscience is clear. I have no baggage. I have peace at last in Jesus. No fear. Don't get me wrong though, Jesus says: in the world, you shall have tribulation, but do not fear, for I have overcome the world. Ain't it wonderful? o thank you Jesus.
I am a new creature Even... only thing is, I have a firm belief that when I fall short, and I do daily... that I confess my sin and rely on Him who gave me life to pull me through.
That's my testimony brother... I hope you enjoy the read. I would love to hear about your tesitimony too!
In God's hands...
Jay
Last thing, read about the coming judgement in Daniel 7. I think you'll enjoy it- I know I did. :wink: